Before Being Mrs. Fazli

Dear Earth,

Dear Sky,

Dear Life,

Dear Love,

Dear Family, 

Dear Friends, 

Take this as official announcement, a way of spreading the walimahtul urus.

Take this as memory that finally this two souls will be united.

Take this as a wonderful step to a new phase life of being a husband & wife.

Take this as a living proof, after all we've been through, Allah let us be together. 

And we thank you family & friends , for the prayers & being supportive of Al Mubarakah Suleiman & Fazli Yahaya's journey to everlasting love insyaAllah until Jannah.  

Thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah..

Fa Inna Maal' Usri Ushra

saya ada 15 minit untuk berkongsi cerita sebelum kelas seni visual bermula.

saya ada hampir 400 anak murid sekitar usia 7 hingga 9 tahun.

saya kerap membebel pada mereka. seni itu mungkin subjektif tapi masih satu subjek penting bagi pencernaan kreativiti mereka.

saya kini semakin akrab malah sayang pada mereka.

saya rupa-rupanya seorang guru yang senang cair dengan anak muridnya.

saya berdoa saya akan sentiasa diberkati dalam mendidik anak murid saya.

saya sedang berusaha. untuk masa hadapan mereka dan saya.

saya bagaikan perlu 48 jam sehari untuk siapkan semua.

saya perlu faham bahawa dalam setiap kesusahan ada kesenangan.

Fa Inna Maal' Usri Ushra.

not entirely correct nor completely wrong

i'll repeat that sentence in my mind whenever i'm upset.

"not entirely correct nor completely wrong"

that there's the list. pros and cons.

i'll give you a tip on that, erase all the cons, be grateful for the pros.

a lil bit while after that, you inhale.. long pause... exhale..

you have to bear with perhaps until you die.

because why? living without love is not even a life at all.

threshold

do not

do not

do not

do not

do not

do not say no.

not this time.

and this time,

it is not wrong to think what is the best for yourself.

do not say no.

not this time.

stay calm nana, stay put.

FIANCE, I AM

I'm getting married in less than four months with the man I've fallen in love with since 2008.

It all happened naturally, my fiance (wah i call him fiance now) and I didn't plan that we will be married this soon. We just go with the flow, knowing that we were comfortably dating until..yes until both side of the family started  giving the hints "about time you get married.

And we did, both family finally met and set the date, wedding date will be on 29th October 2011. The mas kahwin would be RM80 and wang hantaran (dowry) will be RM7000 and dulang hantaran (gifts for bride & groom) for both sides are 7 dulang. It will be held at my brother's place, like all the wedding in our families, the solemnization in the morning and reception will start in at 12 pm to 5 pm.

The engagement occasion was really a simple one, only both family members were there. We follow Sunnah, engagement should not be spread or celebrated with others which will be contra with the solemnization. Simple Johorian food were served and negotiation between my brother and my becoming father in law about 30 minutes in the Multipurpose Hall of the Condominium. And i was waiting in the house with him. Haha recap, remember Sudin & Jeton in Bujang Lapok? both of us were waiting with much anticipation. The man infront of me were about to be my fiance at that time, we can't stop smiling goofly to each other. Fazli Yahaya is going to be my husband, InsyaAllah. Heee!

And I was called to be present at the Hall, like any other Malay engagement ceremony, my mother in law to be, put the ring on my chubby finger, we salam and kissed each other on cheeks, and officially we're engaged. I instantly felt relieved, this mother in front of me.. will be my mother in law in four months. I'm so lucky to be wed with a man with such a wonderful and loving family. Both families breaking the ice, getting to know, the siblings, the relatives and such and the occasion ended around 4pm.

The only set back was the feeling of wanting my late mother and late father to be there. They would be very happy if they are still alive. But i'm sure they are.. even from a far. Mama, Ayah.. Na nak kahwin dah.. InsyaAllah Bancik boleh jaga Na...Doakan Na & Bancik ya..

Alhamdulillah we took the second step and InsyaAllah if everything goes well, we'll be husband and wife soon. 

Now let's get started with the wedding preparations... the only came into mind, simple wedding with pastels colors and only close family & friends... 

Mohon doa semua.. Ya Allah permudahkanlah segalanya.. Amin

pohon maaf,aku hambar namun rindukan semua.

Sebahagian diri rindui melimpah rasa dalam alam maya ini.sebahagian lagi menahan,bilangnya,dunia nyata tunggang langgang,masih berkeinginan mengetik ngetik.segera selesaikan tugasan dan tanggungjawabmu. Seperti mana terdampar blog ini,sebegitu jua akrabnya aku dengan yang lain.ntah apa yg aku kejarkan aku pun tiada pastinya.rindu berhujung minggu bersama keluarga.rindu ketawa bersama rakan taulan. Aku jua kurang punya ingin untuk beracara atau membeli belah. Hanya rasa letih,gusar dan mahu berehat jika berkesempatan. Aduh aku memberi seribu alasan tidak semena. Maaf blog,aku jarang berkongsi apa.maaf jua sekalian manusia.rasa aku masih sama. Hambar.mungkin faktor usia.aku tidak teruja dengan kehidupan.mungkin hanya pada anak tekak dan anak-anak kecil saja. Mungkin aku perlu tukar angin.dan kembali segar. Yang masih dicari untuk ditukar itu apa? Tuhan,beri aku jalan.

Aduhai Siti Aminah Suri-Ghammm Sayang

Assalammualaikum Siti Aminah bt. Ismail,

Siti Aminah tak kenal pun Aunty Na, i was just one of your thousands viewers in You Tube. Aunty Na tgk video awak banyak kali sebab awak terlalu cute and i also got to know about your dad's everlong suffercation because he lost your half elder brother 13 years ago. Apart from that, i don't really know much about your dad, your half elder brother in UK, or yourself. But your family have made an impact on most of the viewers like me.

Siti Aminah, when you read this entry, hopefully by then you're smart and old enough to understand that your dad is a strong hearted person. Yes he is. And you both are lucky to have each other, i'm sure your dad loves you and your brother just as much. The difference is you are with him, and your brother is not. and that is why he is hurt. it's totally understandable but it doesn't mean your dad loves you any less. He just want his rights. He just wants your brother back to join your family.

Siti Aminah, i pray that somehow kan, with God's miracle, your half brother will open his heart to find your dad back one fine day. Though he have changed religion and way of living, he still have the right to get to know, to love and respect his real father.Or maybe you, Siti Aminah, manalah tahukan, Allah Segala Maha, in the future, you will your ways to help to reconnect your dad and your half elder brother. Wouldn't that be a wonderful victory for all of you?

And of course there will be obstacles to achieve all that, it has been a painful experience for your dad, so Siti Aminah please try to understand the situation and try not to hurt each other's feelings. InsyaAllah i have the instinct that you are going to grow up to be a very kind, loving, intelligent and strong person. You might have the strength and your ways to help your dad kan? All is sum to one reason, because it's your family. And a family have the right to love and have one another and no laws should be above that.

InsyaAllah Aunty Na and perhaps many millions people who knows your family situation, will pray for you, and May Allah bless your family and may your dad will be able to smile again without feeling hurt deep in his heart. Be good dear Siti Aminah. God bless!

Best Regards,

Aunty Na

p/s : your dad make a short video when you were 3, then 4 kan, harap-harap every year dia record awak every year. boleh tengok awak membesar ;)