cari makan

the news was in. my contract will be over end of july.

where will i go from there?

buru rezeki, haruskah kujejaki:

a) tambak johor. lahirnya aku di jalan storey?
b) pulau singapura. bertaukey si sepet lagi?
c) kuala lumpur. arwah ibu bersemadi?

i'm worried.
i'll be broke in a month time.
i'm worried.
i have to save as much as i can now.
i'm worried.
i lost appetite.
i'm worried.
i feel a bit broken inside.
i'm worried.
i'm worried.
i'm worried.

i'm worried.
i'm worried.
i'm worried.

i'm worried.

Ya Ilahi, have faith in me, tolong tuhan.

Words of Wisdom from the Qur'an

1. Respect and honour all human beings irrespective of their religion, color, race, sex, language, status, property, birth, profession/job and so on [17/70]
2. Talk straight, to the point, without any ambiguity or deception [33/70]
3. Choose best words to speak and say them in the best possible way [17/53, 2/83]
4. Do not shout. Speak politely keeping your voice low. [31/19]
5. Always speak the truth. Shun words that are deceitful and ostentatious [22/30]
6. Do not confound truth with falsehood [2/42]
7. Say with your mouth what is in your heart [3/167]
8. Speak in a civilized manner in a language that is recognised by the society and is commonly used [4/5]
9. When you voice an opinion, be just, even if it is against a relative [6/152]
10. Do not be a bragging boaster [31/18]
11. Do not talk, listen or do anything vain [23/3, 28/55]
12. Do not participate in any paltry. If you pass near a futile play, then pass by with dignity [25/72]
13. Do not verge upon any immodesty or lewdness whether surreptitious or overt [6/151].
14. If, unintentionally, any misconduct occurs by you, then correct yourself expeditiously [3/134].
15. Do not be contemptuous or arrogant with people [31/18]
16. Do not walk haughtily or with conceit [17/37, 31/18]
17. Bemoderate in thy pace [31/19]
18. Walk with humility and sedateness [25/63]
19. Keep your gazes lowered devoid of any lecherous leers and salacious stares [24/30-31, 40/19].
20. If you do not have complete knowledge about anything, better keep your mouth shut. You might think that speaking about something without full knowledge is a trivial matter. But it might have grave consequences [24/15-16]
21. When you hear something malicious about someone, keep a favorable view about him/her until you attain full knowledge about the matter. Consider others innocent until they are proven guilty with solid and truthful evidence [24/12-13]
22. Ascertain the truth of any news, lest you smite someone in ignorance and afterwards repent of what you did [49/6]
23. Do not follow blindly any information of which you have no direct knowledge. (Using your faculties of perception and conception) you must verify it for yourself. In the Court of your Lord, you will be held accountable for your hearing, sight, and the faculty of reasoning [17/36].
24. Never think that you have reached the final stage of knowledge and nobody knows more than yourself. Remember! Above everyone endowed with knowledge is another endowed with more knowledge [12/76]. Even the Prophet [p.b.u.h] was asked to keep praying, "O My sustainer! Advance me in knowledge." [20:114]
25. The believers are but a single Brotherhood. Live like members of one family, brothers and sisters unto one another [49/10].
26. Do not make mockery of others or ridicule others [49/11]
27. Do not defame others [49/11]
28. Do not insult others by nicknames [49/11]
29. Avoid suspicion and guesswork. Suspicion and guesswork might deplete your communal energy [49/12]
30. Spy not upon one another [49/12]
31. Do not backbite one another [49/12]
32. When you meet each other, offer good wishes and blessings for safety. One who conveys to you a message of safety and security and also when a courteous greeting is offered to you, meet it with a greeting still more courteous or (at least) of equal courtesy [4/86]
33. When you enter your own home or the home of somebody else, compliment the inmates [24/61]
34. Do not enter houses other than your own until you have sought permission; and then greet the inmates and wish them a life of blessing, purity and pleasure [24/27]
35. Treat kindly " Your parents " Relatives " The orphans " And those who have been left alone in the society [4/36]
36. Take care of " The needy, " The disabled " Those whose hard earned income is insufficient to meet their needs " And those whose businesses have stalled " And those who have lost their jobs. [4/36]
37. Treat kindly " Your related neighbours, and unrelated neighbours " Companions by your side in public gatherings, or public transportation. [4/36]
38. Be generous to the needy wayfarer, the homeless son of the street, and the one who reaches you in a destitute condition [4/36]
39. Be nice to people who work under your care. [4/36]
40. Do not follow up what you have given to others to afflict them with reminders of your generosity [2/262].
41. Do not expect a return for your good behaviour, not even thanks [76/9]
42. Cooperate with one another in good deeds and do not cooperate with others in evil and bad matters [5/2]
43. Do not try to impress people on account of self-proclaimed virtues [53/32]
44. You should enjoin right conduct on others but mend your own ways first. Actions speak louder than words. You must first practice good deeds yourself, then preach [2/44]
45. Correct yourself and your families first [before trying to correct others] [66/6]
46. Pardon gracefully if anyone among you who commits a bad deed out of ignorance, and then repents and amends [6/54, 3/134]
47. Divert and sublimate your anger and potentially virulent emotions to creative energy, and become a source of tranquility and comfort to people [3/134]
48. Call people to the Way of your Lord with wisdom and beautiful exhortation. Reason with them most decently [16/125]
49. Leave to themselves those who do not give any importance to the Divine code and have adopted and consider it as mere play and amusement [6/70]
50. Sit not in the company of those who ridicule Divine Law unless they engage in some other conversation [4/140]
51. Do not be jealous of those who are blessed [4/54]
52. In your collective life, make rooms for others [58/11]
53. When invited to dine, Go at the appointed time. Do not arrive too early to wait for the preparation of meal or linger after eating to engage in bootless babble. Such things may cause inconvenience to the host [33/53]
54. Eat and drink [what is lawful] in moderation [7/31].
55. Do not squander your wealth senselessly [17/26]
56. Fulfil your promises and commitments [17/34]
57. Keep yourself clean, pure [9/108, 4/43, 5/6].
58. Dress-up in agreeable attire and adorn yourself with exquisite character from inside out [7/26]
59. Seek your provision only by fair endeavour [29/17, 2/188]
60. Do not devour the wealth and property of others unjustly, nor bribe the officials or the judges to deprive others of their possessions [2/188]
    

All the words written above are the words of Allah written in Quran. The things which Allah told us to do is called Fard/ Faraz. And the things Allah told us not to do are Haram. So the above verse are also Farz. This is a kind reminder for us not forget to apply it in our daily lives, InsyaAllah.

source : I LOVE ALLAH.com

As Sabur

walau terasa hingga ke tulang hitam.
walau terasa hati calar merata.

benar sungguh sabda tuhan.
hanya sabar sahaja bisa kuatkan aku.

"perlu bagaimana lagi aku harus turutkan? hingga seperti sapi tua hilang punca susunya?
lebih elok, korbankan sahaja nyawanya. sapi tua itu terasa sudah tidak berdaya"

tapi bila iman kembali menemani hati, bilangnya

"As Sabur. Al Mubarakah. As Saburkan dirimu."

ONCE A UPON A DREAM, I'D STUMBLED ON REALITY

and it hit me hard & cold straight into
my veins & right through my soul.



there are never everlasting sweet dreams,




there are always neverending nightmares.

TAGGY TAGGED

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah : orang yang lucu & suka main game 24/7.
   
2. Saya sedang mendengar : hati berbicara. eceh.
   
3. Mungkin saya patut: cari duit lebih untuk masa hadapan daripada jawab soalan-soalan ni. hehek.
   
4. Saya suka : berfantasi ketika menghadapi masalah.
   
5. Sahabat-sahabat baik saya : sangat penting dalam hidup saya.
   
6. Saya tak paham : soalan Al Gebra. susah kan kan kan.
   
7. Saya kehilangan : ibu & ayah ketika berusia 23 tahun.
   
8. Ramai yang berkata : wang bukan segalanya. tapi segalanya perlukan wang, kan?
   
9. Makna nama saya : Yang Sentiasa Diberkati.
   
10. Cinta itu adalah: semulajadi dan berfungsi tanpa disedari. tanpa dipinta. walaupun dalam suka atau duka. pergh. hehehe
    
11. Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang : menipu sang isteri dan berdating dengan kekasih songsangnya. takutnyek.
    
12. Saya akan cuba : terus belajar dan tolong ramai orang selagi belum mati.
    
13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud : kekal & hakiki milik Tuhan. kita tak ada satu pun selamanya. semua pinjaman belaka.
    
14. Telefon bimbit saya : tak best sebab camera tidak berfungsi..rosak.. sheesh!
    
15. Bila saya terjaga dari tidur : saya nak tidur balik tapi tak boleh.
    
16. Saya paling meluat apabila : orang kerek berbual dengan saya.
    
17. Pesta/Parti adalah : seronok kalau ada banyak tanglung warna-warni.
    
18. Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah : ikan lumba-lumba, obor-obor,beruang panda & babi.
    
19. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah : 13- 21 tahun.
    
20. Hari ini : Alhamdulillah, kurang panas.
    
21. Malam ini saya akan : tidur awal kerana pening kepala.
    
22. Esok pula saya akan : mencari rezeki. InsyaAllah.
    
23. Saya betul-betul inginkan : keberdayaan dan semangat ketika menghadapi dugaan.
    
24. Ketika saya lihat wajah saya di hadapan cermin pagi ini : saya rasa tak perlu sikat rambut. ehek.
    
25. Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan : seronok tapi kalau ramai orang saya jadi rimas.
    
26. Makanan Barat atau Jepun : memang menjadi kegemaran saya.
    
27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap : perlu ada peredaran udara. saya tak tahan panas atau sejuk. kena sedang elok jek. ehek
    
28. Makanan segera adalah : enak! ringkas! tetapi kurang berkhasiat
    
29. Ayat terakhir yang saya katakan pada seseorang? : set. wa on je.
    
30. Siapa yang saya nak Tag?: saya malas plak nak tag sesape. maaf rakan yg mengeTAG. ia berakhir di sini. hoho

kamariah

Kamariah dalam bahasa arab bermaksud seri bulan yang mengambang.

Malam sabtu 090509 lalu, aku tersengih sendirian tatap bulan sambil sempat memetik obscura mendokumentasi kala bulan mengambang. Malam itu, si bulan seakan dekat benar dengan si bumi. seperti boleh digapai. bella luna..luna bella..Subhanallah!

Aku memang suka bertemankan langit. ok le aku suke Astronomi. a sky gazer. not only a star gazer. (kekawan, wa bukan suke bintang je ek? tahi bintang pun wa suke. ehek)

Oleh itu, hint untuk kekawan, kalau murah rezeki itu, kalau nak belikan hadiah untuk harijadi saya tahun depan, telescope pun ok gak. nanti sambil kita guna telescope mengkaji bintang dan bulan, kita juga boleh makan pizza, minum ribena & beborak kan kan kan ;)

hari ratu hati

pada para ibu.

pada ibuku di syurga.

pada ibumu di kampung.

pada ibumu yang baru selesai menggoreng jemput-jemput bawang di dapur.

pada ibu saudara. pada ibu tiri. pada ibu angkat. pada ibu mertua.
pada ibu yang sedang mengandung. pada bakal ibu-ibu di masa hadapan.
(umumnya pada semua wanita, termasuk diriku InsyaAllah!)

selamat hari mama. selamat hari umi.

selamat hari mummy. selamat hari madre. selamat hari omma.

selamat hari emak. selamat hari ibu.

sila raikan ibumu. ini hari ratu hatimu kan? insan paling terkasih dalam hidupmu.
aku hanya mampu mendoakan yang baik-baik buat ibuku yang kini disamping Maha Esa.
tapi kenangan-kenangan bersama arwah ibu sedang membuatku tersenyum sendirian.
oh ya, err (dengan tidak segan silu) kirimkan salam tumpang sayangku buat ibumu boleh?