seven days in sunny june

I woke up on an idle tuesday of june. half of 2010 is almost gone.

and I tought to myself, how much have i done?

because quite frankly sometimes I feel complete even I can't be perfect and that's good enough for me.

Thank you God, I just wish I'm more faithful to You like You always have for Me. InsyaAllah.

p/s: this is my favourite june song. what's your favourite month song?

ladies from the offiside

Ladies, have you read the official letter from the so called die hard fan, the one from man dedicate to all their girlfriends & wives? it was downright funny as hell. i wasn't offended by it at all. ok, i loved it.

The sky will always have silver lining right, so in spite of the football fever, don't take this period of month as something devastating, it's a bonus for the ladies too. and i'm sure your man will appreciate it.

1. Firstly, i recommend this is a good start for you to have "your time & his time apart". it doesn't mean you will love each other less, it mean to have more space for yourself and himself to actually realize both of you are better when you're together. it's actuall a very nice feeling to miss each other right? err get what i mean?
   
   
2. Secondly, this is the time for you to catch up with your girlfriends. seriously, be it karaoke or just hang out at your favourite cafe, gossiping. he will not bother to call you to get home before 12 am. okay he might check up on when it's half time of any game he's watching at the time. other than that, you're all set to party with your girlfriends.
   
   
3. Okay, this is just my theory, perhaps only on world cup, women can dress to kill. and no man will ogle at us. seriously, they would rather watch all the sweating guys on the field that time of the month. so Chicas, put on your sexy dresses and no worries no guys will stare at your bosoms. hehehe
   
   
4. and and and, this is also a good time for you to get out and go buy things that your man said it wasn't necessary. c'mon girls, i know we already have tonnes of stuff, but we need all of that in different colours and patterns. ok? so this time is perfect, no man on your side to blabber on why you need another pair of shoes. just go and get it. you will sleep smiling and he won't notice it. i promise. hehe
   
   
5. this one could sound a lil bit boring, but a good timing for us to actually do have time for our hobbies. like mine, i love reading. so since this month, i might have less chance of dating him, i might as well occupied myself with books. what's your long abandoned hobbies or been dying to try, girls?
   
   
6. or or or this is just a suggestion, we could really get a really good work out. i mean an intensive 30 days work out. you may feel fitter and look better for yourself and him too. hehe. err i might do it, maybe not the whole 30 days.
   
   
7. and the best and bonus is for the women who loves football as much as their men. it's time for you to really feel connected with your man. you're lucky to have the same passion. but for the rest of us, who's not so much into the football, well at least you try to show some interest when he's trying to explain about football, who knows, along the way, we might learn to like football too. eh we can check up the hot players too, some of them besides Beckham are worth our time to watch the whole game.

i guess what i'm trying to tell all the ladies including myself is we're not sacrificing or losing our man when it comes to all the season & league of football in this world, we are actually the champions ladies, because at the end of the day, the man will always come back to us. ;)

p/s: i only can think of 7 reasons for now. do you have other reasons to share?

pesan si parut pada sang hati

toreh.

perit tiada bertepi.

hilang.

datang kembali.

toreh lagi.

aku tetap muncul walaupun engkau lari.

kadang bertalu aku cakari.

aku teman engkau hati,

kesan aku senantiasa sedarkan engkau.

selalunya pedih namun engkau akan pulih.

kerana engkau perlu kuat, hati.

engkau harus kental.

biarpun tidak sempurna, sedaya boleh berdeguplah hati.

untuk hati-hati yang lain. yang engkau tidak sanggup melukai.

yang engkau paling sayangi sampai engkau mati.

mahupun hati-hati itu antara penyumbang kehadiranku dalam dasar hatimu.

sembilan ketidakstabilan

1. Alhamdulillah saya jarang rasa penat walaupun saya bekerja 12 jam terus menerus tapi apa yang kurang stabil, saya selalu tidak bangun solat Subuh. Dengan itu, solat saya selalunya kurang lengkap 5 waktu. saya sedang berusaha untuk tidak tarik selimut bila dengar alarm clock berbunyi.
   
2. Lagi satu, saya boleh sahaja mengawal perasaan untuk tidak kentut di hadapan orang ramai tapi kenapa, MasyaAllah kenapa, siap-siap ambil wuduk perasaan untuk kentut selalu menduga. agak cemas apabila sedang bersolat. haish. terukkan. adakah saya normal? itu saya selalu tensen. dugaan betul.
   
3. Saya rasa saya berpakaian sederhana sahaja dan tidak melampau dalam bergaya tapi masih belum cukup kuat untuk berhijab. saya suka melihat orang yang berhijab, lebih-lebih lagi yang berjubah. sangat cantik tapi saya takut saya akan mencemari kewajipan menutup aurat dengan melebihkan ke arah berfesyen bukan kerana Ilahi. saya takut tapi secara perlahan saya sedang berusaha ke arah itu. saya sedang belajar melepas pandang dress-dress yang saya suka kepada tudung dan selendang yang cantik.
   
4. Saya jarang diserang penyakit yang berat. Alhamdulillah walaupun saya berbadan besar, saya dikategorikan dalam orang yang sihat dan cergas tapi yang kurang stabilnya, saya kurang bersenam dan saya tak suka bersukan. Saya terlalu adventurous dalam pemakanan selagi halal tapi itulah antara sebab saya berlebihan berat badan. haish. ok saya akan cuba kurangkan selera makan jika boleh. hehe.
   
5. Saya rasa boleh dikata seorang yang cinta pada ilmu. Oleh itu, Alhamdullilah, saya sentiasa teruja & cuba yang terbaik dalam bidang akademik, tetapi yang ketidakstabilannya, saya amat lemah kemahiran kendiri, saya takut memandu kereta. itu kekurangan yang paling ketara dan selalu menyusahkan orang lain. i guess i'm book smart not street smart. and usually street smart survived and book smart just wanna go back to school. bak kata salah seorang rakan saya, "nana ni study CGPA - 3.7 tapi LIFE, CGPA 1.7"
   
6. Saya agak lokek dengan diri sendiri tapi saya kurang menabung kerana saya akan pastikan jika ahli keluarga atau rakan rapat yang memerlukan pertolongan, saya akan tolong sebaik mungkin tetapi yang tidak eloknya, mungkin malu atau ego, saya terlalu takut untuk meminta tolong orang lain walaupun ada masanya saya hanya ada rm5 untuk makan & tambang.
   
7. Saya sering disamakan dengan taugeh, campak mana pun boleh hidup tapi kebenarannya, saya tidak boleh berjauhan dengan ahli keluarga saya. saya takut kalau apa-apa terjadi saya tiada dengan mereka ketika itu. saya terlalu mudah merindui mereka sampai adakalanya adik saya menyampah dengan saya. heheh. mungkin ini antara sebab saya enggan melanjutkan pelajaran ke luar negara, saya mahu mereka dekat dengan saya, kalaulah boleh angkut semua. dah lama saya bawa.
   
8. Saya senang bekerja dengan apa yang saya suka dengan ikhlasnya tetapi langsung tidak tahu mengambil peluang mengaut keuntungan walaupun saya tahu apa yang lakukan amat bernilai. Saya mahu menjadi seorang peniaga tapi saya takut jika saya letak harga pada sesuatu pekara, saya akan membebankan pembeli. haish bagaimana mahu untung? hehe i have no business sense what so ever. haish.
   
9. Saya kini kurang membeli-belah dan mula membuat perancangan kewangan untuk masa hadapan, Alhamdulillah adalah juga simpanan cuma saya sekarang lebih suka pada barang rumah, saya suka perabot & barang-barang dekoratif. saya akan mengumpul semua jenis shia iaitu bekas makanan bertingkat untuk memuaskan kehendak saya. tapi masalahnya saya menyewa bukan rumah sendiri. hmm. tidak sabar mahu rumah sendiri. tidak sabar.

100 dates later

i began to accept numbers.

wait. wait.

please do not go all AL GEBRA on Al Mubarakah, just yet.

i'm taking baby steps. yes baby steps.

but heck! i even began to love SUDOKU

i learnt to COUNT each day i'm with you.

you have no idea how chiwi i can get everytime i see you.

and even now, on our 100th dates together,

what i can't measure is how much i love you.

it's uncountable. perhaps, it's infinity in loving you.

Le Grand Voyage

REDA: Why didn't you fly to Mecca? It's a lot simpler.

FATHER: When the waters of the ocean rise to the heavens, they lose their bitterness to become pure again...

REDA: What?

FATHER: The ocean waters evaporate as they rise to the clouds. And as they evaporate they become fresh. That's why it's better to go on your pilgrimage on foot than on horseback, better on horseback than by car, better by car than by boat, better by boat than by plane.


Le Grand Voyage is a french road film produced in 2004 about a journey of son who was reluctantly accompanying his father to perform his Haj. It was one of the most outstanding film i 've watched because firstly, this film shown "azan" scene more than 3 times if i'm not mistaken. it shows the beauty of praying, bonding with Allah, Alhamdulillah. And secondly you could actually feel how they bond from a cold to close relationship of a father and son. And the ending, MasyaAllah, i was crying like a baby watching it.

This film reminded me of my journey with my late father to peform Haj in 1997. I didn't talked to him for 9 hours straight from Malaysia to Mecca. I'd only came to bond with him while performing Haj with him. It was a precious moment to set yourself free from hatred esspecially your own father. Yes, I was rebellious but Allah knows best, He gave me the chance to be close to my father again in Mecca. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.

Le Grand Voyage touched me deep within my soul. i LOVE it. I miss & love my late father. Seriously, I love films. Films always manage to trigger me to appreciate my life better every time. I love films, seriously.

suh b jek-tiv

lately, i've been analyzing.

sometimes people can assume or some of them can be certain about you or themselves.
be it : your lifestyle, your personality, your goals or even your choices.

in a tiniest moment, all that assumptions can either make you feel good or bad about yourself.
don't lie, what other people say do influence us sometimes.

but the thing is, sometimes the life you never chose, has chosen you.
sometimes uncertainty can certainly become something beautiful.

so i always wonder why people intend to say, "that's not worth it" or "what you're doing is worthless"

why?

do the people already seen what is ahead us or even themselves?

why?

let alone ALLAH decides what worth or otherwise for us.

pray can only be the mightiest weapon for all times so pray for the best.

because at the end of the day, no matter how hard life can be, you only feel happy when there is sincerity.

be it: in love, family, friendship or life it self.

p/s : err i'm very subjective person. i'm sorry if your objectivity of life differs from mine.