the spark

Dear God,

It's Maal Hijrah again. Alhamdulillah, endless thanks for the life you have given me. praises to you, Ya Ilahi. life as we call it, will always remain imperfect and it made me learn again and again it's not always about perfection that can bring happiness, its always the sincerity and persistency in everything we would do in life so all this could lead us back to you, Ya Ilahi.

I admit Ya Allah, i can be reckless at times. i do curse sometimes. i also submit to laziness instead of figuring & working things out in faithful ways. i am not entirely a good person nor a complete foolish human being. I may say, there are moments where i feel like i'm nothing in between and it scares me. will you forgive for that and guide me please?

Ya Allah, all i know, i survive this 26 years because i believe in you are always there for me. the signs are everywhere that you care for me. you let me feel love from people called family and friends. you give me passion and talents to enlighten myself. most importantly you give me feelings. without it, how am i suppose live? and for that i thank you ya Allah.

I just hope the spark is there, esspecially this maal hijrah for me to become better muslimah only for the sake of you, ya Ilahi.

thank you Allah, and send my love to mama & ayah.

Salam Hijrah to all. ;)