Pesan pada dua ribu lapan

Aku adalah manusia yang beraneka warna.
Terkadang hitam, terkadang putih
Terkadang kelabu, terkadang hijau, terkadang merah
Terkadang cerah seperti siang yang berderang,
Terkadang gelap, pekat, seperti malam yang ditinggal sang rembulan.

Aku bangkit hari ini, tanggal satu januari, tahun dua ribu lapan.

Hadapi aku dua ribu lapan sebagaimana akanku hadapimu.

CineManiac

***from myspace blog, written on 6th November 2006

I have like tonnes of work and datelines but here I'm thinking about a film by Pedro Almodovar titled Bad Education and also Richard Linklater's Fast Food Nation and some other films i really want to watch.

I'm losing my focus, losing my so called creativity juices due to my commitment with work & studies le konon. Right now i feel so robotic. Two years back I would watch all the latest films. I would go to cinema and film screenings.

sometimes alone at least once a week just to satisfy my cravings. Would hunt all videostores, pirated or original just to get rare films. But now, i'm so outdated and ashamed to call myself a film ethuthiast.

So pardon me, if i haven't watched the box office film at theatre now. It feels like I've sinned myself. I'd only got to watch an animated film Open Season last tuesday, and you know why i chose to watch it? Because i just want to watch it. WITHOUT paying attention to all the film theories and etc.. like i always do and been trained for the past 4 years. but i can't. i failed. while watching it, i was like.."god the animation is so smooth and the plot is quite ok though its predictable and ashton kutcher voice over suits the character perfectly. how does the animator made boog's fur, the bear look so real, did they use 3dmax and maya or what. adeh. hehe. but overall, i enjoyed the film even tetibe kena migraine mase tgk tu. x bleh gelak besa. potong betul.

And i got to watch thank you for smoking + the banquet pirated dvds. i don't feel like elaborating on these two films, but both are worth watching. like layman cliche comment "its great, i give the film 3 stars"..hehehe..and i'm looking forward to watch the prestige. yeh cakap best. mesti tak sempat catch it at cinema. so i wanna request yeh to buy the dvd and i wanna make him watch it again with me. soon. huhu..

looking forward to join the film marathon with this one muvi buff next year at cineleisure until i feel like puking. can't wait.

happy screening everybody. let it be known, we need to instill the film appreciation as part of our culture. budaya menonton. ever thought about it before?

bagasi mimpi

tengah kota. tengah panas yang terik.terlihat segenap manusia.

bersama bagasi lutsinar.isinya mimpi-mimpi. cita-cita. doa-doa.

pelbagai warna.beraneka bentuk.yang bakal menjadi nyata?

wahai hamba-hamba tuhan yang lain.aku jua seperti semua.
dengan bagasiku.laluku bangun dari bagasiku
(yang tadi dijadikan tempat duduk seminit dua),
melangkah pada lalu-laluan yang adakalanya perit,
ada ketikanya mudah, ke dunia realisasi.

dengan itu, penuh harap, aku tersengih hingga ke telinga.
sambil mengangkut bagasi mimpi yang boleh tahan berat.hati berdetik,

"selagi boleh, kau pikul le labu. dapat tak dapat, belakang kira"

bila rasa melimpah ruah

listening: ari lasso – lirih
feeling : grateful
craving : fresh baked scones with black coffee
reading : a backpacker with no sense of direction – zhang su li

Dua kali namaku bergema di Dewan Sri Budiman.
Sekalinya pada 14 November 2007.
Anugerah Yayasan Budiman UiTM.
Sekali lagi pada 25 November 2007.
Anugerah Naib Chanselor.
Anugerah Pelajar Terbaik Fakulti Kreatif & Artistik.
Anugerah Pelajar Terbaik Program Ijazah Sarjana Muda Seni Layar.
Dua kali hati berdegup menyatukan semua rasa.
Rasa gembira. Rasa Lega. Rasa syukur.
Rasa pedih. Rasa Sedih. Rasa lirih.


Kerana niatku dulu aku mahu ibu dan ayahku ada tika itu.
Aku berdoa agar arwah ibu dan ayah dapat lihat dari sisiNya.
Kerana anugerah-anugerah itu hadiahku buat mereka tuhan.
Sampaikan kisah ini pada mereka tuhan.
Sampaikan berita bahawa mereka ibu bapa yang terbaik.
Sampaikan rindu tidak berhujungku pada mereka.
Sampaikan terima kasihku kerana mereka telah wujudkan aku.
Sampaikan pesan pada mereka untuk nantikan aku di syurgaMu.

Namun hadirnya darah daging pada hari hari itu.
Munculnya sahabat-sahabat pada hari hari itu.
Ada antara mereka yang menitis air mata.
Ada antara mereka yang tersenyum bangga.
Anugerah-anugerah itu juga hadiahku buat mereka.

Terima kasih Ilahi. atas segala nikmat melimpah ruah ini.

whispering a prayer

Ya Ilahi,protect our dreams,bcoz to Dream is a way of praying. Make sure that,regardless of our age or our circumstances,we are capable of keeping alight in our heart the sacred flame of hope & perseverance.

And in order for happiness to be possible."